Who Is This Guy?

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it. – Charles Swindoll

meI grew up alongside the banks of the Miramichi River in a tiny village called Loggieville, Canada. I spent my early days exploring every nook and cranny of that small village. My childhood was quiet, I had a few friends, but never any that were extremely close. I never quite felt like I belonged anywhere, but I’ll admit, I was introverted and I was guarding an awful secret. I was always a deep thinker but I never attempted to share my thoughts in fear of rejection or judgement.

When I was about 10 years old, I was sexually abused by a family member. Not knowing what was happening to me at the time, I suppressed the memories deep inside. Over the year I remained very close to my abuser as I had felt that I loved him very much. It wasn’t until I had my son that I realized that I could go no longer with my secret. In my best effort to protect my son from the monsters of the world, I exposed my secret to the world and outed my father who was the abuser.

After my revelation, I eventually found trust in people again and that trust allowed me to grow into who I am today.

This blog started out as a challenge to myself to write 50 articles during one calendar year (2015), what I didn’t expect was that it would lead me to change careers from a software developer to being a copywriter! Every post is an experience that I have felt, lived, shared. I no longer have any secrets, anger or sadness. I am finally growing up, and I am thankful to be able to share my stories with you.

Sharing these posts of my story lead me to find the courage to do a TEDx talk in 2016 about my abuse and in 2017 I released my first book, “The Roaming Mind – One Man’s Journal of Healing from Childhood Sexual Abuse”.

Click the image below to purchase a copy from Amazon.


Thank you for following my journey to self-discovery.

To contact me, please email hawkeynut@gmail.com