What If…

Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained. – Marie Curie

My son has a curious habit of always asking “What if?” when his imagination meets his curiosity. No matter how silly or serious his questions are I need to remain resolved in answering every one of his “What if?” situations to the best of my ability. As I reflect on this practice, I realize that as grown adults we also ask ourselves “What if?” many times during the course of a day. I know it is not good to dwell on the past, but sometimes we just can’t help it. The older we get, our “What if?” often become more serious, more deep, more unresolved. What if…

What if… I didn’t wake up today?

What if… I didn’t work out today?

What if… I didn’t say ‘I love you’ to my son and wife before we set off on our days?

What if… I skipped breakfast?

What if… I didn’t go to work today?

What if… I didn’t buy my morning coffee?

What if… I didn’t make a conscious effort to shake a bad mood?

What if…

What if… I didn’t go to lunch with my friends?

What if… I didn’t put in an honest day’s work?

What if… I didn’t mow my lawn?

What if… I didn’t spend time with my family?

What if… I didn’t brush my teeth?

What if… I didn’t go to bed on time?

Did any of my choices throughout my day make a difference in the world? Did they make a difference in my world?

What if… I tried harder today?

What if… I died today?

What if… I never existed?

Did I do enough to live? I did do enough to exist? Was I even present?

What if… I did more?

What if… I could go back?

What if…