Workout Journal: Getting Back to Feeling Strong

Dumbells on the floor

Exercise is the only thing I know to cure pain from the past. The rest of this blog post is a summary of my latest workout. I’m sharing this to help motivate you and to understand myself.

Each workout has an intention or a purpose, and in the end, something important is learned. Very few workouts are exceptional, some are average, and most are rough, but all are transformational.

Here is the latest footstep into my fit to live journey…


Workout: Getting Back to Feeling Strong

How Did I Feel Before the Workout?


I’m feeling terrific. It’s Friday, so the mood is up, and I feel accomplished for my week. My body has held up well to my new workout routine. That being said, I think that I haven’t pushed myself as hard as I would have liked.

What Was My Intention?


This is my first Friday at Goodlife Fitness (my new gym), and I want to go into the weekend feeling strong. I’ve decided that Fridays will be strength days where I focus on defying gravity by lifting weights. I defied being defeated by my anxiety this week, today, I will leave it feeling strong.

What Workout Did I Do?


  • Treadmill: 10 minutes of hill running at a 4:35 m/km pace.
  • Weightlifting: Complete 10 station full body weight circuit.

How Did I Feel After the Workout?


My body is worn out, and I love it!! It has been a long time since I felt like this. I was uncomfortable working the machines for the first time, but after a few sets, I got the hang of it. Dialled into the muscle groups I was working, I just let my past experience take the wheel, and I immediately dropped my insecurities.

I left the gym feeling like I really kicked this week’s ass. My mood has improved exponentially since earlier in the week, and that is the sure sign of workout success.

After my first week at Goodlife, I’m starting to feel comfortable there, enough to start raising the bar a little. I feel accomplished!

What Did I Learn?


I learned that to feel strong, you have to do strong things. It has nothing to do with how much you lift or how good you look doing it, it’s that you pushed yourself to that limit -that scrunched up sweaty face limit!


The Story Behind This

Fitness means much more than toned muscles, physical strength and endurance. Building an intimate connection between your mind and body is the true definition of fitness. Life can be tough on you sometimes, and it is only made tougher if that connection is missing.

“Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t, you’re right.”

Henry Ford

I spent many years trying to recover from the the fallout of childhood sexual trauma. My mind was continually trying to disconnect from a body that didn’t feel my own. It wasn’t until I discovered exercise that I was able rebuild that connection and become someone whole and worth living for. Every workout is just another chance to get a little closer to who I really am.

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