Making it a priority to get away from the distractions and demands of your time, to focus solely on you, sounds so selfish. When you have a family to tend to, co-workers and friends to appease, there’s just no space left for you -even if you need it. Often, a battle to get that alone time is required.
Needing to be alone comes with so many negative connotations. When I looked for the cover photo for this blog post, I simply used the word “alone.” Most of the results that came back were pictures of sad people in dark and gloomy backdrops.
Even when you announce that you need some alone time, you often are asked “Is everything OK?” as if needing to be alone means requires an intervention. You don’t need permission to be alone and you don’t need a reason. Listen to your mind and allow yourself the time to get away.
I know that I’m in need a little bit of alone time. And with this workout, I will attempt to figure out why, I won’t pressure myself to have an excuse. Perhaps, I just need to be me, with me.
The Reason for This Blog
The most magnificent reflections in my life come to me when I work out. There are all kinds of science behind why your mind opens up when you’re in beast mode. It’s the reason why many people become addicted to body movement in the first place -myself included.
Before each workout, I set an intention to learn something about my life and world. And then, I record it on this blog to encapsulate my thoughts and then share them with you.
What Was My Intention?
The intention of this workout is to understand what it is that I need to release by being alone.
How Did I Feel Before?
Physically, I feel fine. I’ve been pretty good with my food intake (quality over quantity) and my recent workouts have proven to be challenging but not overwhelming. However, mentally, I can feel a dip coming on. It started earlier this week, and now I can feel the swing coming.
What Did I Do?
- Yoga: 45 minutes of vinyāsa yoga, followed by meditation.
How Do I Feel After?
Refreshed! I really was feeling tense in my calves and shoulders. This helped elevate that physical stress.
What Did I Learn?
During my meditation following yoga, I learned something profound as to why I feel the need to be alone. It stems from wanting to be physically alone to match the mental feeling of being alone. Yesterday, I was triggered when I had felt that a family member was not being trustworthy.
Whenever I am triggered with trust issues, it makes me feel alone, but, in reality, I’m far from it. This need to be alone, allows me to understand that I can trust myself apart from the trusting community that surrounds me. I’m not trying to distance myself or quiet the noise. My need to be alone is strictly a coping mechanism for my trust issues, a way for me to lick my wounds and heal.
I do not want to be left alone.
Just for a moment, I need to be alone.
Read Past Fitness Journal Entries:
- What are the rules?
- Forgiveness: It’s An Inside Job
- Fatigue Makes a Cowards of Us All
- My Greatest Inspiration
- Making Sense of a Senseless Tragedy