Exercise is the only thing I know to cure pain from the past. The rest of this blog post is a summary of my latest workout. I’m sharing this to help motivate you and to understand myself.

Each workout has an intention or a purpose, and in the end, something important is learned. Very few workouts are exceptional, some are average, and most are rough, but all are transformational.

Here is the latest footstep into my fit to live journey…


Workout: A Message Worth Repeating

How Did I Feel Before the Workout?


Overall, my health is well-balanced. My body and mind are aligned, and I am grateful to be pain-free.

After a mic-dropping speech I made on Saturday night, I have a renewed sense of purpose. I spoke very openly about my childhood abuse and left no punches; I just let my heart speak. Now I feel liberated. Liberated to speak more. The world needs each of us to speak from the heart, without fear of validation or approval.

What Was My Intention?


In the past, I felt ashamed to be an example of fitness -both physically and mentally- because I felt unworthy. But after 10 months of intently listening to those I love, I’ve learned that they look to me as that example. They see hope in what I do and that they too can feel healthy and free from their pain, if they just move a little more.

My intention of this workout is to reflect on the message that I am spreading to the world. After nearly 10 months of Facebook abstinence, I am thinking of giving it another go. But this time, to speak my truth, to set that example, not to impress or validate, but to be me.

What Workout Did I Do?


  • Stationary bike: 45 minutes of escalating intensity, maintained a high heart rate throughout.
  • StairMaster: Climbed 25 flights of stairs at a 7 floor/min pace.
  • Ab workout on the mat (crunches, heel grabs, reverse crunch)

How Did I Feel After the Workout?


Rubber legs! I feel terrific, actually. Mondays are always my favourite days to workout, and today was no exception. My mind was clear throughout the workout so I was able to expend all of my energy on that stationary bike!

What Did I Learn?


I learned that we can’t fall in love with our ideas. Like children, when we fall in love with them, it becomes very tough to give them away. Ideas are not meant for us to hold onto, they are intended to be shared.

My idea of sharing my health journey message in hopes to inspire and get people moving has to be given away. Otherwise, the idea will fizzle, and I will never realize the impact that I can have on my world. I’ll just be another person with an idea they love.


The Story Behind This

Fitness means much more than toned muscles, physical strength and endurance. Building an intimate connection between your mind and body is the true definition of fitness. Life can be tough on you sometimes, and it is only made tougher if that connection is missing.

Don’t bend; don’t water it down; don’t try to make it logical; don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

Franz Kafka

I spent many years trying to recover from the the fallout of childhood sexual trauma. My mind was continually trying to disconnect from a body that didn’t feel my own. It wasn’t until I discovered exercise that I was able rebuild that connection and become someone whole and worth living for. Every workout is just another chance to get a little closer to who I really am.

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