There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. – Maya Angelou
As news broke about a reporter and cameraman being shot at point blank by an ex-colleague on-air, I was very saddened of how two young lives were cut short at the hands of someone so cold. They were only in their early twenties, they woke up that morning believing full well that they would go to bed that night in the comforts of their own beds. It didn’t happen. They had dreams of tomorrow, but tomorrow never came. Life in an instant was taken from them.
Some of us take each breath for granted, assuming that the next one will be right there behind it. Some of us put things off that are perceived to be too difficult right now, hoping later, it will be easier. “I’ll get to that tomorrow, when I have more time”. It rarely ever gets easier and before you know it, your procrastination that started with tomorrow, ended with next year. Sometimes it can even become more difficult as circumstances change, you change. So, why put off until tomorrow, what you can do today? What if tomorrow never comes? Are you OK with that?
As I reflect on my own life and how it could all end in a fraction of a second, I realized that I need to -more now than ever- share my story with the world. That If tomorrow never came, I would not have a rested soul. In the last few years I have had to build up the courage just to write this blog, to be more transparent, to face my biggest fears and weaknesses publicly. Now, in order to complete my healing, I need to share with those who care, my story, my darkest secret.
In the next few weeks I will release my story that will expose my reasoning as to why I had to rebuild “me” from the ground up. Sadly, my story is not uncommon and I hope that by telling it, it will give others the strength to tell their story so that they can be free from their past. I realize that what I have gone through in life is nowhere near as horrific, violent or even as challenging as others have been through. But I feel that I still need to jump that final hurdle to get to my own freedom. When those whom have had their final breath taken away and were not given the chance to live their life to it’s fullest, it makes my story almost seem trivial.
See you in a few weeks!
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